nickk i havent wrote to you in a while but you know i havent forgotten you! i speak toyou every night wishing and hoping to see you again or hear those rocks against my window. i could say it in a thousandwords but the simplest are that i love u and i missu!! no ore waking up at 3am to hear the daiy rocks or screams of ASHLEEEEEE! the bustelo in the morningg ahh btw i make u ur cup now andthen still. christmas just passed an it wasnt the same . i remmber how many bottles of xmas aeropastle clogne i bought u. nick i missu . i bough mommy and daddy pjs forxmass. mickeyy some awesome toys. and angelinaher first bear n braclet. i misss u nick so much and everyone says time heals all wounds but i dnt think it can heal this one. i loveu and ull always have a p[lacein my heart .merry christmas. dont startle me but please stop by to say hi idlove to hear my 3am routine again iloveuuuuu mima (sheepe) wanted to say she loves u and she alwys thinks about u even though u know that. i miss my hugs please stop b im not letting u go. iloveu for always and always is forevr ashlee alyse leon. we miss u! (btw john marcus ommy And daddy miss u n send their love too!)
| ashlee alysee | Love you Nic Nic | December 29, 2009 |
| Nick Nespo. | <3 | December 24, 2009 |
I never knew you, but the feeling I get inside that my friends lost you makes me cry...its so sad knowing you were such a great kid! Everyone loved you :( Best condolences to your family. Nickky, I'm sure everyone's watching over your little brother <3
To The Nespo Family: Have A Happy Holidays ; Nespo's watching over you )':
| Georgiann | For Nic's Mom | October 9, 2009 |
Although we don't know each other personally, my son has Nic's acknowledgement card stuck in the mirror of his dresser. Months ago while I was cleaning it fell. I picked it up and looked at your son's smiling face and ever since that day, I have visited his site often. I have always felt the need to write something but could not figure out just what. Today I came across this poem..
I Hear Each Tear Fall On Her Face
My Mom doesn't know I'm watching her
but I'm watching her just the same.
And I hear each tear fall on her face
at the very mention of my name.
She says it sounds like music to her ears
and can be heard over a crowd.
Oh, I hear each tear fall on her face
when my name is said aloud.
I watch her stumble through each day
as she wishes the day would end.
And I hear each tear fall on her face
as she talks of me to her friends.
But there are few who truly understand.
Oh this I've heard her proclaim.
And I hear each tear fall on her face.
Will my Mom ever be the same?
I know that her smiles light up a sky.
But I don't see that smile today.
Oh, but I hear each tear fall on her face.
Her blue skies have turned to gray.
Oh I send to her my warmest hug
with the rays of the morning sun.
Then, I won't hear a tear fall on her face.
For I shall erase them one by one.
Yes, my Mom doesn't know I'm watching her.
But I'm watching her just the same.
And if I hear a tear fall on her face
I'll just softly whisper her name!
Author Kaye Des'Ormeaux ©2001
| lil nespo | i love my big bro | September 15, 2009 |
hey
wat you doing
so im doing nothing
hug me now
please hug momy and dad for me i love you imss you
soooooooooooooooo much your the best bro imss you i love you
| Alyssa Ciacci | heart broken | September 13, 2009 |
lil father.
do you remember when I first saw you? i Do. anyways;
every night right before i go to sleep i pray for you wishing to see you again. theres no doubt in my mind that your right by my side. some times when i see your picture in my phone i get a rush of chills. I no your there.
I just started in my new high school, pelham. Its differnt but you no the first day i went to cheer. I had you running threw my mind. Some girl asked me where i chilled & if i new steve dee it was his cusin. I menchined your name and my words where triping over one another i wanted to cry but i tryed to keep my self together. As i walked home i thaught of the crazy memories i had with you and how you grew on me. it was all a secret and only u and i no why. i still feel your tears on my sholder. when we had that serious talk. about me and everything else. no body new that we new one another except for a few people. im crying): i have so much more to say but im going to theitalia feast with mommy . i no im going to see things that remind me of u. <l3 ilu I need contact with u come in my dreams. one last hug or tight sweez..
| alyssa ciacci | days go and winds blow | September 13, 2009 |
Nespo aka my lil father. I miss you so much, your the air that i breath. NiC NiC i wish you where by my side right now. Our memories and talks are all stored in the back of my head. i Cant get you out of my mind.
I saw your father a few weeks ago. I was in Lizzies chylling on ceecee & your dad walked into the store & i wanted to hug him just to imagine as if it was you. it scares me how you guys look so much alike. Lindsey tried to calm me down she felt so bad . i was a reck. i got in line *& i started to think i took a look forward and your dad was infront of me i swore he thaught i was a iddoiot he had no clue why i was crying. your dad was walking around with your button on his shirt. o how your parents love you so. we all do... Save me a seat. i MISSYOU!!
| Debbie | From one mom to another..Thank You | September 7, 2009 |
This is for Nicky's Mom...You don't know me.. I felt compelled to write to you after reading your letters to your son and my heart breaks for you. I have a 16 year old son Ryan and losing him terrifies me and paralyzes me. When i read about your relationship with your son , it sound so much like me and Ryan...He too always knows when I am sad and is relentless in his endeavor to figure out and "fix" what is bothering me. I jusst want you to know that reading your letters has put so much into perspective for me and I think that God brought me to this website to be grateful and live every moment with my son as if it may be our last. Thank you for your words and for sharing your son and your relationship with him with the rest of the world. May God Bless You until you meet your precious son again and you will .
| ELSIE | SAW A BIG MURIEL | September 3, 2009 |
| Mommy | Tears that will forever Fall from my Eyes | August 11, 2009 |
The tears will forever fall from my eyes,
MY soul will forever scream with Pain and Sighs,
Nothing in this lifetime will take away the strain in my heart and soul,
My Love, how can I ever be whole.
Apart of me has gone away, it has left my life and soul astray,
I am left with nothing more than tears that will continuously fall...
How can I find Joy, when My best friend, My Love, My First Baby boy isn’t here to give me the love and strength that I need in order to heed,
What might be in front of me, you see my love, I just can’t see,
I am Blinded by the tears that will forever fall from my eyes,
My Love for you is so deep and strong, stronger than the fires of the sun,
I will move mountains and walk fiery fires or even swim across an oceans span
to get to you my Love, just to hold you in my hands...
To stare into your eyes and feel the love and joy emanate once again in my soul,
This is when I will again feel whole,
This is what I long to embrace, the day I can lay down to GRACE,
So I can too be in heaven with you,
Holding you, hugging and laughing at everything, making music with your guitar,
Singing and dancing on a heavenly star,
and never, never again feeling this pain, this is what I wish to gain…..
Forever my love, , until I am in your arms again...
Your Buddy, Mama Dukes, Your Soul… Mommy
Nicnic, Nothing in this life will ever be right, because you are not here with me..
I hope and pray that one soon day I too, can once again be with you…
I have learned a pain that will pierce even beyond the gates of heaven…But, I hope that God will see that My turn needs to be soon, so together we can walk on the moon! I love you forever & ever.
| mom 2 Waylon Kitchens | thinkin of you | July 30, 2009 |
Have you ever wondered what makes the wind blow?
Could it be our loved ones blowing us a kiss?
Have you ever wondered what makes the stars shine?
Is it our loved ones keeping watch over us while we sleep?
Have you ever wondered what makes the skies cry?
Could it be our loved ones missing us?
Have you ever wondered what makes the sun shine?
Is it our loved ones giving us a warm hug?
Have you ever wondered what makes the ocean waves come pounding to shore?
Could it be our loved ones wanting to touch us once more?
There are so many of natures wonders and do we really know why?
Is there a higher power making sure we always remember the loved one we’ve lost and shall never forget.