Nicholas Marty Nespolini

Hey there, 

I know I talk to you all the time, but today I wanted to write to you.

Last night Father Pat said something that really made me think. He said, (paraphrasing) "Its not the two dates that count, but the dash in between". Your dash created an imprint on my life, as many others, and because of that, there is no way in the world I could ever forget you, or ever want to.

I love you Nick. I couldn't imagine my life without you, you were my angel that I got to feel and see. I am very lucky person, because not many people get to have angels in their lives. Not many people have angels that throw rocks at their windows, or throw them over their shoulders and carry them home. Not many people get to meet people like you, and I am blessed to have gotten to share so many memories, treasure so many hugs, learn so many lessons and most of all, see what really caring really means. You have been a stepping stone, a foundation, a library and a constant flow of belief in my life. I couldn't thank you enough.

I have been blessed to be close to your family. I love them. And when I am with them, I know you're there too. I love that they too love me. And that they let me share in their lives. I really appreciate it more than they will ever know. <3 

It snowed today. It snowed 9 years ago as well. And to me, that will always make me feel like you are there. You are with me. You are with us. All because it snowed. And just like every snowflake, you were unique. Just like snow on the trees, you as a whole, were beautiful. And just like the feeling of running through the snow in the morning, you were magical. And just as the snow melts, and returns back the sky, You do too. But most importantly, just like snow, I know you'll always be back.

Una Due Tu Shum <3  I always will.

Love Always,
Ashlee <3  

Nicnic Happy New Year show everyone how to celebrate New Years!! I always look at this picture of you & Ajdar how its painful that you both never got the chance to hang, talk, or go to the gym together as you planned. Nicnic you are right "Love is Pain". I miss you so much & I grieve in silence, my tears, broken heart & soul screamimg in silence. Tears no one sees, grieveing of missing you, the heartache no one hears just SILENCE. It so silent I feel like I will explode inside my heart & soul.
I listen to George Micheal's song every now & then ( Different Corner ) the song has different meanings to people but the pain of love in the song rips me apart because it reminds me of you & your tatoo on your bottom lip.

Nicnic have a great New Year with everyone in Heaven kiss my baby girl Genet Harry Farije Bute & everyone that I miss & love. 

Teze Loves you SOOOOOOOOO Much & misses you.

I wrote you a long letter but the computer made it disappear. I hope it was you that received it. I miss you my love~
Happy New Year

I fight my tears when I smell you, or when you leave me feathers. There are many times I get a glimpse of you & want to chase you then you disappear.
When I see you at times your at my grasp I reach you & you leave. I want so much for you to stay that glimpse or you just walking by I just wish you can stay.

The love & pain hasn’t changed since the day you left, I just hide it & grieve in silence.

Nicnic on this blessed day Enjoy Christmas with Jesus & all of those we love that are with you.

love you always Teze 

Nicnic  happy Thanksgiving bud, Teze so sorry I haven’t been here. I always think about you, my eyes, arms, heart, & soul yearn just to have you here with us. I miss kissing your face, hearing your corky laughter, your ways of making us laugh I miss all that. I miss our private talks which by now you know I told your mom. I my private moments I Cry about what could of been It tears me up inside.

Nicnic go have fun on this Thanksgiving day with everyone my baby Genet,Harry, Farije & Bute. Please hug them all and tell them I love them so much especially my baby. (My baby I wish I had seen your face before you left, all I see is your curly dark hair in my dreams mommy loves you)

Nicnic Teze ❤️ loves you sooooo much, happy Thanksgiving kiddo!

Nicnic Happy Birthday tomorrow have a beautiful joyful birthday with everyone in heaven. Teze sorry not been myself lately my body falling apart dont have much control whats happening to it but it is what it is. I miss you so much I always think of you no matter what I am doing. I grab your pillow at times when I need to hug you, and at times I look for a hug & your there.  I love you kid so much I miss you terribly.

Go Enjoy your Birthday Tomorrow throw some heaven dust our way I love you...Teze

nicnic
i want to see you when i am sleeping and then see you when i am awake. i will se you when i am awake becus you are my sunshine. i will see you when you are my baby too.
i love you
angelina

Nicnic Happy New Years bud, also let Jenet Harry Farije Bute & everyone we know and love I said Happy New years 2017! I can't believe another year has come & gone and your handsome face I don't get to see kiss or hug. I miss you Nicnic so much ❤️❤️❤️ My heart aches my soul burns just to hug you. I picked this picture because I look at it alot, & I made your mom so mad at me for not letting her sleep with you. It was amazing how you never cried when you were hungry or when you pooped or anything just made small noises.

Lately Nicnic I have you & Jenet always on my mind asking if you know each other, if you hang with each other. If you know what Jenet looks like, would she know who you are. Does she know Harry Farije Bute. Will she know me if she saw me? Nicnic, Jenet has been in thought a lot I hope she is in your care & your looking out for her as she is looking out for you. I Miss you Nicnic so much that you and Jenet have left footprints on my heart & soul.

HAPPY NEW YEAR NICNIC TEZE LOVES YOU, HUG JENET FOR ME & TELL HER I LOVE HER & WISH I KNEW WHAT HER FACE LOOK LIKE.

My Love,
I guess I dont have to tell you much of where I have been or what I have been doing or going through, because I know you have been with me and are going through it with me. I know this my love, Yet It is still hard.
I ask that you be here with me every step of the way, literally until I reach that gate where you can then hold my hand and walk me through. While I believe in the glory of heaven, the peace, the pure love and wonders of all things beautiful, I still wonder and still yearn for you to be here.

I imagine that we are in sync with heaven and that the difference between us and you is a split second of time ( a heart beat away) a dimension of time equal to a mirror image effect with the one side being the dark and the other being the light. All things the same except the individual souls and their experiences.. One the one side of the mirror there are tears and struggles, the other side smiles and achievements. On the one side illness and pain. The other side pure well being and agility. On the one side, Loss of love & Loniliness, the other side, unconditional love and togetherness and so on.

I hope that you have  worked the wonders of heaven to your advantage and joy. I hope you are living your spiritual life to thefullest with a little bit of good mischief for fun. I hope you have not grown or have changed much since I last saw your beautiful face. I hope that there is dancing and that you are doing much of it. I hope there is dating and that you are doing much of that too. Dont forget what mama has always said.. " No Sh......" , hahahaha... Take that for fun and games. 
God/Jesus I beleive has a wonderful sense of Humor . I believe he has a wonderful one in store for me. I wait for the greatest of all. I imagine the " Tree" and laugh. I hope I dont face that. 

I often imagine the pure love, joy and bliss you have embraced and I cry because I believe it to be true however I ache to physically see you, just so that I can just hold you. I need to feel you kiss my face and your arms holding me. I NEED to Hear you call my name. I need you my love. I am needy and will be even more so soon. I dont know how I am going to make it through without you so please please hold my hand and NEVER NEVER NEVER let it go. YOu know the Drill...............

I will try to remain simple for you but please forgive me if I lose my way. Please ask My Jesus to Carry me and guide me to remain on his graces and to always hold my hand as well. I can not do this....
I love you my forever love.

Love you always
Your mamadukes.

Merry Christmas Nicnic I wish I can kiss that face that I love & miss so much. My heart and soul aches to see you, my arms burn to hug you, my eyes are blined without sight of you, my lips dry without kisses on your face; I miss you kiddo so much seconds dont go by without you in thought.

Please let Harry, Farije, Jenet(my baby), Bute & everyone we know I said Merry Christmas I love them so much & miss them too, especially my baby Jenet.

Nicnic I want you to have the best Christmas with Jesus & Mother Mary & everyone else that loves you. I just wish you were here instead, it may sound selfish but thats how I feel.

Merry Christmas bud...Teze Loves You Soooooooo Much!