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Teze Happy Birthday Nicnic April 20, 2017
 
Nicnic Happy Birthday tomorrow have a beautiful joyful birthday with everyone in heaven. Teze sorry not been myself lately my body falling apart dont have much control whats happening to it but it is what it is. I miss you so much I always think of you no matter what I am doing. I grab your pillow at times when I need to hug you, and at times I look for a hug & your there.  I love you kid so much I miss you terribly.Cry

Go Enjoy your Birthday Tomorrow throw some heaven dust our way I love you...Teze
angelina my sunshine February 17, 2017
 
nicnic
i want to see you when i am sleeping and then see you when i am awake. i will se you when i am awake becus you are my sunshine. i will see you when you are my baby too.
i love you
angelina
Teze New Years Eve 12/31/2016 December 31, 2016
 
Nicnic Happy New Years bud, also let Jenet Harry Farije Bute & everyone we know and love I said Happy New years 2017! I can't believe another year has come & gone and your handsome face I don't get to see kiss or hug. I miss you Nicnic so much ❤️❤️❤️ My heart aches my soul burns just to hug you. I picked this picture because I look at it alot, & I made your mom so mad at me for not letting her sleep with you. It was amazing how you never cried when you were hungry or when you pooped or anything just made small noises.

Lately Nicnic I have you & Jenet always on my mind asking if you know each other, if you hang with each other. If you know what Jenet looks like, would she know who you are. Does she know Harry Farije Bute. Will she know me if she saw me? Nicnic, Jenet has been in thought a lot I hope she is in your care & your looking out for her as she is looking out for you. I Miss you Nicnic so much that you and Jenet have left footprints on my heart & soul.Cry

HAPPY NEW YEAR NICNIC TEZE LOVES YOU, HUG JENET FOR ME & TELL HER I LOVE HER & WISH I KNEW WHAT HER FACE LOOK LIKE.CryCryCry
Mommy WALK W ME AS I WALK THRU THIS SIDE OF LIFE December 28, 2016
 
My Love,
I guess I dont have to tell you much of where I have been or what I have been doing or going through, because I know you have been with me and are going through it with me. I know this my love, Yet It is still hard.
I ask that you be here with me every step of the way, literally until I reach that gate where you can then hold my hand and walk me through. While I believe in the glory of heaven, the peace, the pure love and wonders of all things beautiful, I still wonder and still yearn for you to be here.

I imagine that we are in sync with heaven and that the difference between us and you is a split second of time ( a heart beat away) a dimension of time equal to a mirror image effect with the one side being the dark and the other being the light. All things the same except the individual souls and their experiences.. One the one side of the mirror there are tears and struggles, the other side smiles and achievements. On the one side illness and pain. The other side pure well being and agility. On the one side, Loss of love & Loniliness, the other side, unconditional love and togetherness and so on.

I hope that you have  worked the wonders of heaven to your advantage and joy. I hope you are living your spiritual life to thefullest with a little bit of good mischief for fun. I hope you have not grown or have changed much since I last saw your beautiful face. I hope that there is dancing and that you are doing much of it. I hope there is dating and that you are doing much of that too. Dont forget what mama has always said.. " No Sh......" , hahahaha... Take that for fun and games. 
God/Jesus I beleive has a wonderful sense of Humor . I believe he has a wonderful one in store for me. I wait for the greatest of all. I imagine the " Tree" and laugh. I hope I dont face that. 

I often imagine the pure love, joy and bliss you have embraced and I cry because I believe it to be true however I ache to physically see you, just so that I can just hold you. I need to feel you kiss my face and your arms holding me. I NEED to Hear you call my name. I need you my love. I am needy and will be even more so soon. I dont know how I am going to make it through without you so please please hold my hand and NEVER NEVER NEVER let it go. YOu know the Drill...............

I will try to remain simple for you but please forgive me if I lose my way. Please ask My Jesus to Carry me and guide me to remain on his graces and to always hold my hand as well. I can not do this....
I love you my forever love.

Love you always
Your mamadukes.


Teze Merry Christmas Dec 25 2016 December 25, 2016
 
Merry Christmas Nicnic I wish I can kiss that face that I love & miss so much. Cry My heart and soul aches to see you, my arms burn to hug you, my eyes are blined without sight of you, my lips dry without kisses on your face; I miss you kiddo so much seconds dont go by without you in thought.

Please let Harry, Farije, Jenet(my baby), Bute & everyone we know I said Merry Christmas I love them so much & miss them too, especially my baby Jenet.

Nicnic I want you to have the best Christmas with Jesus & Mother Mary & everyone else that loves you. I just wish you were here instead, it may sound selfish but thats how I feel.CryCryCry

Merry Christmas bud...Teze Loves You Soooooooo Much!
Teze Nove 24 2016 Happy Thanksgiving November 24, 2016
 
Nicnic Happy Thanksgiving bud, you are so missed & there are days I ask when will I wake up to see that is was just a bad dream. There are days I see you just passing by or I smell you. Those are the days that makes me ache that reality smacks you in the face like sledge hammer. CryCryCry I wish I can find a road that leads you back to us. Is there a road that only God knows & we dont see, are we blind to what we need to see or are we just in limbo?

I always vision your graduation day, your goofing around, laughing that I miss so much, your special hugs that felt like Harry was hugging. The vision that breaks me into trillions of pieces is your wedding & you becoming a dad Cry; I am a total mess when I see these things & a song plays that I downloaded its a dance song but the words I know it fits who you are (Forever).

I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SO MUCH!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING YOU ALWAYS IN MY HEART & SOUL...Teze
Teze I Love you nicnic September 16, 2016
 
I cant believe there are days that I feel you & the other days reminder your not here where I can hug you & kiss your handsome face.This picture I saw & the words hit me like a bulldozer; Nicnic I miss you so much. (kiss my little girl Jenet please she comes to mind a lot tell her mommy loves her I will ho;d her again)

How time passes so fast & yet it feels like yesterday, words & pain is like dust in the wind no one sees, hears or feels your loss & pain. Sometime I think its better that way or maybe God intended  it to be this way I have no idea but SILENCE is also devistating to the heart & soul. I find my self Nicnic in so much SILENCE I actually can hear my heart beat maybe its because I dont share my greif of loss with anyone except my pillows. I believe its better this way I dont burden my thoughts & feelings on anyone.CryCryCry

Cry
I cried two days ago missing Harry's hugs CryCryCry& you Nicnic have the same hugs I became hysrerical & it made me more alone. Tell Harry I need his hugs sometimes so I can feel less heavy. Harry hugs always lifted any burden that sat on my mind, shoulder, heart & soul even physically I use to feel heavy burden & Harry hugged me I always felt like I was floating.

I will visit so again ask God to just give me my strength back so I can get back on my feet...thanks!

Teze loves you so  much hugs & kisses from me also give Jenet Harry Farije Bute all my love I miss them so much!
Mama Dukes Happy Anniversary February 1, 2016
 

Its seem like its a thousand years and yet its only seven. Seven years, I couldnt stay without you for a moment, even when I let you go with papa to florida.. I hopped on that plane and met you there. A thousand years my love....
I couldnt sleep without seeing your eyes, your face, and kissing you goodnight.
I couldnt breathe at the thought of you being an hour away and now I am here a thousand years without you.
My spirit has weakened, my body has aged,without you here with me. I know you are present because I feel you and you leave me amazing signs... I just NEEEEED to kiss you and see your eyes.... I need to hold you and smell you, I need to hear you call my name. If only once, I promise it will carry me for another thousand years.

I love you with my life, you are the heart of my heart, the blood that runs through me. You are my soul, my serenity and my sanity always.

Ashlee <3 January 30, 2016
 
Hey Nick,

I miss you, a lot. I wish you were here physically to share the last seven years with me, the ups, the downs, the in betweens. I wish you were at my wedding, dancing, eating, celebrating. I know that you're here still. I know even though I can't hug you, that you are here. I don't think you would've missed my wedding, or anyday. I know you have a lot of people to visit, and maybe thats why I haven't seen you in my dreams for so long, but I dont think you're gone. Because even when you were with us, and I needed you in impossible times, you made it to me. You have always been an angel in the form of my best friend. 

Years could pass and pass, but I could never forget you. You were so unique. If there was no you, for younger me, I have no doubt that I would'nt be where I am. While other kids were getting in trouble, you kept tabs and made sure I was never part it. You literally would carry me home on your shoulder if you thought I should'nt be somewhere. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate that.

If I was sad we ate cookies. I cried and you never made fun of me for it. I am blessed to have been blessed with you. You put up with my tantrums. Goodness I was a brat at times, and you brushed it off. Nothing effected our friendship. 

I will never forget the time you sat with me sleeping on the swinging bench in my yard, and refused to move because you'd wake me up. You are beautiful. And I know that you sent me my husband, because blessings come from blessings. Thank you for being in my life, making memories with me, keeping me safe, even when you drove me crazy, I could'nt have asked for a better friend.

I love you Nick. Una due tu shum. 
Teze I still can't believe its Seven Years January 30, 2016
 
My Nicnic today it will be seven years since you left.CryCryCryCryCryCryCryMy heart still broken I still feel like I am in a nightmare waiting to wake so I can say it's just a dream; because I still feel you here! I still have not accepted you leaving...I love you so much it hurts the very thought of you not being here. I maybe in denial but I still feel you here. Theres not moments or days that I don't feel you here, sometimes I feel you will knock on the door & call to me "Teze I need to talk to you" or when you come with mommy & I jump to smack your neck or when Mikey bothers you; " you call Teze please tell him to stop"! I will never accept you gone I still feel you here!

Teze loves you so much!

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