Nicholas Marty Nespolini

nick, you were always an angel. no one on this world can be compared to you, because you were out of this world. nick i knew you for as long as i lived here, and i remember the day we met, i always knew you were special. at times we got on each others nerves but just like you knew i was always there for you, i know you were always there for me. people say as time goes on this wound will heal, but i doubt it because each day hurts more without you here. its so hard because nick you were my best friend and you always will be. i never grew so close to someone so fast. you became my family, eating over, taking naps here , hanging out, downloading music every second of the day. i miss it all. theres this one memory that just sticks out in my head and i love it. i remember one morning you were with my mom in the backyard while i was sleeping, it was summer and i was sleeping late but you wanted to hangout. so you told my mom you were waking me up. you ran up the stairs of my house into my room and tried to wake me up, but with so much care. and i said nick u cant be up her, and you said mommy knows. and as i rubbed my eyes to open to see you , you lifted me up carried me down the stairs and outside , and i fell back to sleep in your arms. and you held me, as i slept. that made me feel so loved. i look at all your pictures and i smile because you were amazing, you are amazing. but i cry because it will take a lifetime to see you again, and thats so far from now. its not fair. the other day i was crying because i miss you so much, and john said something that opened my eyes, he said" you have wait a lifetime to see him, we both do, we all do, but when that lifetime comes, well be with you forever, and forever never ends". that gave me a little more optimism, like you always did,but it still doesn't fill the millions of cracks in my heart. i miss you yelling at my window at 3-6am or knocking on my window so i can download music for you or wake me up to make you bustelo. i wish i could of told you how much i truly love you appreciate you and care about you. nick i love you so much. truly thank you for everything.

I  MISS  YOU...YOUR  LIKE  A  BIG  BRO TO  ME.I  LOVE  YOU.COME  BACK.

Nic Nic, I am looking at your pictures and that is all thats left just memories. I cannot hold you, hug you or even poke you just to see if I am able to tickle you and make you laugh. (Remember iny miny mony mo I got nic nic by his toe then I would tickle you under your arm pitts)

 I am missing you so much and its so hard each day that passes that you are not here.

 

I am so lost not hearing your voice or when you come by nena's sometimes to pick up Mikey I get your hugs. I am being torn apart inside knowing I am never going to hug you again in this life, but i await the day when I see you again when I will hug you and tickle you as i did before in this life.

 

This pain is too much, you can take all the pain this life has and put it all together it does not compare to this pain of loosing you. I love you sooooooooooooooooo mmmmmmmuuuuuccccchhhh...Teze

Nic Nic,

I only met you once or twice but knew that you were special.  Not because your mom always bragged about you but because you were a big brother to Michael and a great grandson to Sam's mom. Your mom told me extraordinary things about you and I knew she loved you with a passion only a mother can have.  Please comfort her in this lonely time because forever is so very long to wait.  Much love, Joanne

Please come back, I want you real bad. Nick I love you soooooooo much. So, when you come back you will make me so happy. When you are 16, I am going to give you your guitar back and this time i am going to take you for lessons. Nick, you will always be my big brother well then when you come back I am going to be the next big brother. If anything happen to you nick, I will take care of it.. and just remember that you will be in my heart forever and ever...

I love you, Big Nespo from Lil Nespo.

Ps. I was dancing with felicia the other day... I looked up her dress.. hahaha! I am just like you bro..

Your are my Serenity, your presence in my life was enough to keep me whole. Whenever I was confused, down or just having a bad day, your eyes, the way you looked at me, your smile, the way you spoke to me.. your hugs, I love you mom, and just the simple things you did, like trying to push your way back into my stomach... you always told me that you needed to go back into my stomach... because you wanted to live inside of me forever.. haha... provided me the serenity that I needed to overcome and find the motivation to be strong for all of us...

You are my Sanity... When you were a baby I never allowed anyone to make you cry... your eyes were not allowed to draw a tear from it or ever look sad...If ever you were sad... I was broken...Your presence kept me Sane, Together, Whole... You were a perfect son, Friend, and Angel to me... You were and remain to be MY SOUL..

You Often said, " I am you mom, and you are me" We are One.... this is True... because now I am lost and do not know who I am without you....MY Soul is Broken, My life is Broken and you are the only one that can make me whole again.....
there is so much I want to say...and So much I have been cheated out of...
I MISS YOU SOOOOOO MUCH... PLEASE BE THERE FOR MIKEY... He Misses you so much.. you can see through his eyes.. they are empty...
PLEASE BE THERE FOR DADDY... HE is also lost... Ever since you was a baby... Every single night as you know, he did not go to sleep unless he kissed you goodnight and told you how much he loved you... Now, he is lost... You and him were just shopping that thursday to buy you your car... you made a date that friday morning to go to motor vehicles to pick up your permit and then to go and get your car.... Daddy is still going to buy it for you.... YOU MADE US PROUD EVERY DAY.... the way you always put other people's needs before your own, the way you made everyone happy, your good morals and respect for everyone, your promises that you kept and the Love and Devotion that you gave to everyone you loved, made us proud tooooo,,,, You are extraordinary...
MOST IMPRTANTLY.. You are my SOUL, SERENITY AND SANITY... My Love, I will yearn for the rest of my days, to see you again, to unite our souls so that we can be as one.. WHOLE>>>>>>Hopefully SOON~

 

 

Do you remember when I told you to never be selective with your vision, (never be selfish with what God has put in front of you to see) Never be selfish with what you hear, because God did not give us our eyes and ears just to see and hear what we want to see and hear... He has given us the beauty of our vision and hearing to see and hear everything, The good, bad and ugly... With that, never wait for someone to ask you for help... just help them and move on... and most importantly never pass judgment on anyone you do help.. because you are not here to judge.. you were here to help.. You followed and observed and learned and became an extraordinary person who never waited to be asked for help... you just did it, even if it costed you... you were always there for all your friends and strangers in their time of need. You used to tell me "Mom, I can see their pain through their eyes, I need to make it right for them" and you did...
It did not take much for you to have the love for anyone you met... It came natural for you...you had enough for the entire world..
You only started to hang out when you were 13 years old, and in the 4 years you were hanging out you accomplished more Good than both of your parents have in their lifetime...
MY LOVE, everyone of your friends have been with us from that day that God called upon you to spread your love in heaven.. They have shared some of their fondest stories of you and also told us how much you have changed their life forever... You made many see who they were, because you provided care, love and friendship to them, that has distilled in them a passion to be better for themselves and others.....THEY ALL LOVE YOU TOOOOOO,,,,, I went to Demi's 16th Party on friday... It was nice as I am sure you know... I am attaching a picture of how beautiful she was.. But, I think you already know that!!!

nicc, its been a month and 2 days that my life stopped but the world kept going. I feel like you've been gone for an eternity and i feel like i cant move on with my life. I need you here to be with me through thick and thin like you've always been. you were like a brother to me i really cant believe your gone. I can honestly say you were the best thing that happened to our family. i love you more then words can describe and i will forever cherish the moments we had together. i miss hugging you and laughing with you. I miss hearing you say i love you totty a million times everytime we spoke and i miss the smile i used to get on my face everytime i herd your voice. I dont know how i am going to ever accept the fact that your not here with me, it had to have been the hardest thing that ever happened to me so far and will probably be the hardest thing ill have to live with. i cnt wait til i see you again. I know your with me every minute of the day cause i can feel you. I talk to you every morning and every night and i will continue to do so because you were and will forever be my best friend. Nic i love you with all my heart you were my other half. Ill see you soon ninic <333 your my angel God is lucky to have you up there !! 4.21.92 - The day my family was blessed with an angel 1.30.09 - The day God took him back

Nicnic,

you are in my heart forever and ever. I will grow up and have kids and I will take L=Block and take good care of it. I would never let anything happen to L-Block or all of your friends. Nick, I will make a kid, and if he is born April 21st, that will be you coming back to me. You will then be the great son ever. When you are 5, I am going to buy you a guitar and drums and I am going to take you for lessons so you can become the greatest musician in the world. Just like you wanted to be. Rest in peace Nicnic..

You were always the best brother to me. I miss you ! and we will meet again...

I love you

Mikey...

 

Nick .....my lil albanian cousin....lol. You wouldv'e been 17, you should be 17. I don't understand what happend. It practically been a month and this is still blurry. I wish you wouldve said somethin, u know I would have listened to u n gave u some type of advice. I think this hurts the most because it really didnt and shouldnt have happendl; now all I have is those childhood memories, n boy oh boy do we have alot lol. Remember u used to always come to my house to sleep over and we would get into a fight n u would call your parents od late n they used to get tight at u. We used to terrorize that dog u and your mom had, chasin it around the house tryin to "karate chop" it lol. U used to sit there and let champ rape me lol. We used to play football, or atleast try to play football in ur moms bedroom lol. I still got that video of me and you when I was singing to Nicole....lollll me, steph, n jess where watchin it the other day. The best was the time we put "the toe" on ur moms lab top lolll. Damn, we still had sum plans, u was supposed to come wit me next yr to Woodburry n be my financial advisor again lol. Well im still goin and u better come too and find some ay to help me so I dont spend all my money like I almost did this past year. N dont forget our lil boxin match....U kno I wouldve knocked u out righ? lol but ill give u the wine this time. But if I ever see u again...n I hope I do, we could duke it out lol. The priest kept on sayin all this n that bout ur passin away should "open our eyes" n at first I swear it as getting me tight but it kinda did open my eyes. You showed me to appreciate the people you love because they could seriously be here one day and be gone the next. When Jess told me the news that morning when I was on the bus I had no idea that I was gon hear what I did. It crazy cuz I used to see u all the time when we where young n now ill never see you again (I hope I do)....I never expected this n now that it happend, I jus wish we wouldve spent more time together bc you know you was my favorite lil cuz righ? Don worry, you still are and you always will be, now n till the day I die n then hopefully I get to chill wit you some more.

I love you Nic Nic