Nicholas Marty Nespolini

it cut mee offf....

nick its so hard to breathe with out you but give me thre strenght.
YOU ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE THE BROTHER I NEVER HAD, I NO THE MEANING OF LOVING SOMEONE CAUSE THE FREINDSHIP WE HAVE IS LOVE
REST IN PEACE MY BROTHER :'/

LOVE ALWAYS, YOUR BIG LIL BRO

nespo i cant begin to talk. words cant and will never describe what you mean to me. i didnt loose a friend i lost my brother. Its so hard to go to your house and not see you there. The though crosses my mind of why you; the most loving person in the world left it first. not a day goes by i dont cry, not a day goes by i dont see your face and not a day goes by i dont pray. But as the days do go by its that much harder. When you died i died, but im alive so i feel your alive that really is all that keeps me going. i know you see  all the things i do on earth while you up there smoking a newport blasting metal, u problaay got god listenin to death metal. but thats the kida kid you are and thats what made u my best firend. i rememer one of the last days in the summer when we were sitting on lizzies wall and i said hey nespo look down at everyone and i smiled and gave u a hug u called me a fag then hugged me back. at least 70 kids out on layton that night that had to be a reccord and to think it started from me and you and now all of us. When you said i love this block i wouldnt trade it for the world i know you understand this block would trade anything in the world to have you back. i smoke a ciggerette in the morning everyday and leave u a bustdown like u always did. i sleeep with you pictures on my wall, your words in my mind, and your love in my heart. The sleepover we had were priceless, "Scott im gunna stab this bitch" but nespo u dont have a knife " I gotta nice sharp fork in my pocket mother fucker " . You were the craziest and funniest kid i knew aallll the tattoos we got, fights we were in together i wouldnt trade it for anyhing. All the memories we had together is how i walk around smiling. I always told you to do goood in schoool so we can move out together and you kept saying yea yea w.e. and the funny part is u got your deploma before any of us. I will keeep y promise, since i cant have you to move out with i decided to stay home cause my home was your home. i look at pictures of me and you nespo and i cant help but cry. If my tears could build a stairway i would come up there and carry you down in a heartbeat. even though when its hot in my house i never felt so cold, cold casue im missing my nespo; my little big brother. and nick i no your with me, your problay in my kitchen eating my foood right now cause i swear everything is tasteless.  but i know your here with all of the signs you gracefully presented me with. every time the wind blows i feel you with me and everytime i cry alone i feeel a hand on my shoulder. This article is for me to share my memories; therefore i need to share my heart on the coputer cause all of the memories of you always went to my heart never my mind. i dont love u like a brother cause i love youu for being my brother. You no all the problems i would call you for before i opend my mouth. you new the right words to say and you new how to wake my ass up at 5 am so ur not lonely and culd eat and have a stogie before schoool. nespo i remember when i was going threw those problems with one of my x girlfriends and if it wasnt for you im positive i wouldnt be here right now. you were a angel in discuize

Thoughts of you caught in a whirlwind, as confusing as your last goodbye
that morning was when the storms clouds rolled in, my body lifeless, my heart so tight, my soul in forever pain, I am sending a message to God, Can you tell me Why?

Where did our happy boy go,  our long sunlit days now gone
You laughed and danced and talked the night away, staying up with your friends to greet another sunlit dawn.

Sharing dreams and hugs and kisses too, endless days were spent
just the two of us together, we were always soooo content.

I didn’t see the rainbow fade or the clouds within your eyes
you left just as the season did, taking the sunshine from my skies. I am sending a message to God again, Can you tell me Why?

A single strand of my soul still clings on, but very soon it too will die
as seasons change and people do, leaving broken dreams and butterflies

Oh Lord, now all I ask is why? 

You are my life,

Love you always and forever, Until our soul becomes as one again…

nespo i remember wen i slept over and we snuck out to go to seven eleven wat a trip came bak and knowing me as always  saying the most dumbest shit and u were like phil stop thinking and then i was like nick i thaught i new and all the guitar hero i never got to play lmaoo and the dominoesss  i no i should be writing way moree lol but im in a rushhh so rest in peace my brotherrr

nickyy i cann neverr forget the timee we were all chyllen in thee wooods & i gott lostt & cudntt walkk at all & you carriedd mee outtt, my bigg bro never let anything badd happen too mee. sometimes i think im crazy cus i still thinkk that nextt weeek you'll bee backk & ringen my dooorbell wen im sleeepingg. uhh i miss thee times you wouldd comee too my house or the times you wouldd tell me to come to yourss & youu wudd tell me yourr ready & whenn i wudd get to yourr housee i wouldd still have to wait an hour for you to finishh getting readyy.. ughh nickk you always madd me laughh. thiss winterr hass beeen so lonelyy withoutt youuu.. its been a lil over a monthh & itt feeels liekk foreverrr. i cant take thiss. & the timess youu would come all thee way outtaa yourr housee too come outt nd gett me for a cigarettee.. i miss stayenn on the fone withh youu . misss goingg for thosee walkss & misss givenn mee adviceee that you alwayss alwaysssssss endedd upp beingg rightt abouttt. i hadd my holee trustt in youu. myy holee heartt in youuu. i amm soo lostt withouutt youu, no onee cann everrrrrrr take youur placee.. you were heree for me liek no one else could. if you were on vacation & i needed youu . you would be here in a heartt beat.. im soo happy you got to live youur lifee & that you were happpy & got to do the things you wanted too doo. i miss doingg thingss withoutt youuu. i reallly misseddd youu att my partyyyy, but i knooo youu weree theree dancingg right besidee me havenn funnn . no one knows thee kinda pain im innn & how this hurtss mee soo muchhh. watchh overr all of uss broo. bottom linee is that you will neverr everrrr everrr bee forgotttenn your always in my heartt broo. rest in peacee <3

I LOVEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!!!!!!!

MY SHQIPE!  GOD I MISS YOU SO MUCH... IT'S UNBELIEVABLE HOW MUCH I GREW TO LOVE YOU IN SUCH A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME!  I REMEMBER THE FIRST DAY YOU CAME OVER... YOU SAT AT THE COMPUTER WITH ASHLEE TO CHECK OUT EVERYONE'S MYSPACE..  MY AUNT ASKED, WHO'S THAT CUTE BOY? LOL AND EVER SINCE THEN KEPT HOPING YOU GUYS WOULD GET TOGETHER! LOL LITTLE DID WE KNOW THAT YOU WOULD INSTEAD BECOME PART OF OUR FAMILY, AT EVERY BBQ, EVERY GET TOGETHER & EVERYDAY IN BETWEEN... I SO MISS THOSE DAYS W YOU COMING IN ASKING FOR "SPANISH COFFEE", DOWNLOADING MUSIC AT THE COMPUTER, MAKING ME LISTEN TO YOUR NEW CRAZY FAVORITE SONG!!!  YOU WERE SO MUCH FUN & SO VERY SPECIAL.  YOU EVEN MADE MY SON LOVE YOU, "LIL SHQIPE", AS YOU CALLED HIM, TIL THIS DAY HE SEE'S YOUR PICTURE, SAYS YOUR NAME & STARTS DANCING BECAUSE HE REMEMBERS YOU THAT WAY, ALWAYS WITH THE IPOD IN YOUR EARS, SHARING THE HEAD SET WITH HIM!  THANK YOU FOR MAKING HIM SMILE.  I'LL MISS YOU FOREVER & LOVE YOU FOR ALWAYS!  YOU TRULY ARE ONE OF A KIND... ALTHOUGH I'LL NEVER SEE YOU TAKING A NAP ON MY SOFA, PASSED OUT AFTER SCHOOL, I'LL GIGGLE EVERYTIME I THINK OF ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES YOU'VE GIVIN ME & WAIT FOR THE DAY WHEN WE MEET AGAIN.  ALTHOUGH I NEVER DID GET TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVED YOU WHEN YOU WERE HERE, I PRAY TO GOD THAT YOU HEAR ME NOW & EVERYTIME I SIT & TALK TO YOU ALL BY MYSELF.  NICK NICK, MY SHQIPE, I LOVE YOU.

I talk to you everyday hoping you are listening. My birthday was yesterday and I swear that was the worst birthday EVER. Writing this is hard for me because I have so much to say and don't know how to say it. All I can think about is when you were born. I always wanted to be with uncle nicky and your mom just so I can help change and feed you. I can't believe that was almost 17 years ago! Nico and I was just talking about funny stories. Remember  the day of the block party when you and Nico went to get the can of pork and beans for steph on her birthday? Thats a inside family joke that nobody would get but we thought is was funny....lol. We had a lot of good laughs! X mas was fun too......aaawww poor Nico we all gained up on him and had so many jokes....lol. When I look back at all the memories I smile and laugh but inside I am so hurt. Our family is broken and will never be the same with out you. This has taught me to cherish what I have while I have it because it can be taken away from you in a second. I always loved you and if I knew this was going to happen I would have made sure I told you everyday. The pain in my heart is undescribable and it will always be for the rest of my life. All I ask of you is that you please come around from time to time and let me know your here. Watch over our family and protect us.

 

I love you, I love you, I love you.......

 

Love always and forever your cousin Jessi

nic nic <3 i miss you so much.. im still in shock whenever i come across your picture i just still cant believe it..i wish i can go bak to the days when we were younger all the BBQs in my backyard and you chased me nd my friends around the pool with a plastic chair. You always had us laughin we never knew what you were gona do next. i know we havnt seen eachother in a while the last time we seen eachother was at the feast nd i remember u came up to me nd said u dont remember who i am i looked at you nd was in shock "NIC NIC" i cudnt believe it u got so big u huged me nd i wish i can go bak to tha moment. You told me my father was lookin for me uh oh i hada be in trouble we laughed went our seperate ways. i was watchin my sweet 16 the other day nd u were in my video i jus wish we can go bak in time. your were like a lil brother to me nd i love you kid. you were loved sooo much never forget that <3 Our Angel watchin over us <3 until we meet again ..i love you

Nespo,

Funniest memory we have, has to be the day we all were partying at jay's grandmothers house, the day it was pouring rain out. And Scott and jay wanted you and me to run to Mcdonalds to get them food. Trying to light the ciggs in the rain but they just kept breaking in half when we were flicking them because they were wet. And on our way back when Scotts bag of food ripped and all of his chicken selects except one fell in the puddle. and i said " What should we do?" and you Said " I have an Idea", and you swept them up into the box again. We went back and scott said they tasted like rubber, then we told him, and he said he wasnt eating them, so you grabbed the only chicken that didnt fall and ate it, i laugh everytime i think of that....

 

Love you kid, No one in this world was like you bro, Hold me a Spot.

                      

                                                                                                  -Angelo

 

NicNic... My heart is filled with sadness... The world lost something very "SPECIAL" the day you passed away...You were a "beautiful" child & I will always treasure & cherish the time we had with you. Little boy--HUGE HEART!!! I remember taking you on some of our mini-vacations...you were the only boy surrounded by a bunch of girls!! Haha!! Nicole loved you so much!! You used to drive Uncle Donny crazy & I used to laugh so hard!! You were so adorable & had so much spunk to you!! You will be missed my BEAUTIFUL nephew!! Watch over your little brother. Give him strength & guidance. Your mom & dad can be very proud of the "incredible" person you turned out to be. It's very rare that you find love, heart, compassion, strength, loyalty, courage & even wisdom all in one person -- let alone in someone your age. You had it all... I see & read how all of your friends "ADORED" you!!! I sit here and cry for you!!! I cry for your mom, dad & Michael too... No one deserves this kind of loss or pain... Michael & Joey would have loved you!! The only thing that gives me any sense of peace out of this whole situation is that I know my Vincent will finally get to meet you! I know you'll take good care of him & that means the WORLD to me! Please give him a big hug & kiss for me & tell him I LOVE HIM!!! I'm "honored" to call you my nephew NicNic & I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!! Whenever I look up at the stars at night--I know the brightest one's are yours & Vincent's. You're in the arms of the angels now -- be happy -- be at peace... someday we will all be together again!! Love you! xoxo........ Aunt Christine