Nicholas Marty Nespolini

Nic Nic, yesterday on our way home from Gigi's house your mom was telling how she smelled you at Gigi's house and I changed the subject on her because it really tares me apart to see her cry and I did not want her to cry and I know it may have made her feel that I did not want to listen I did but see your mom cry it kills me inside the way  am feeling of you not being here. I was hoping she wanted to scream at the top of her lungs which I thought your mom was going to do but she didn't. Your mom is angry on the inside but she is showing alot of grace on the outside and I see it in her eyes the huge void that is missing.

 

When I saw your dad the other day when Father Pat was over your house cry it just angers me that I cannot do anything and it makes me so helpless and the smae void is in your dads eyes as well.I always told your mom if she ever got married to another man no one will ever be able to replace your dad in my eyes love him as if is my brother.

 

Michael the other day asked me about the pictures when you stuck your middle finger up and I told him the story so Micheal now takes your middle finger and his and he uses both hands instead of one and Mcheal said one is from Nic Nic and the other from Micheal and I had to take a picture of that. He wants you back so much and he told me he wants to buy the L-block and I believe he will. Nic Nic in alot of ways there is alot of you in Micheal with a little twist he wants to be the big brother to you.

 

I love you Nic Nic and I miss you every second of the day and every breath that I take it hurts just knowing I will never see you again in this life but I know I will see you again in my dreams and soon I will see you in Heaven. mMy boy in the mirror you will always be my baby boy that I felt I gave birth to. Love you always Teze

Nespo...block in the box=(....i dont know what it was about you, but all my problems didnt seem to matter when i was with you, we would just laugh at everything possible....even if nothing was funny, i remember you always said my laugh was enough to make anything funny....remember the time me, you, cody, and margaret ordered tommys pizza to your house at like 2 in the morning, and we downed it while watching movies. cody had a good 5 slices even though he threw no money....and ill never forget our obsession with Transformers, your favorite parts still stick out in my mind, "BABY COME BACK", "What's cracking lil bitches?", "My name is Optimus Prime", and the whole thing with the Hoover Dam. i remember you laughed when i told you i remembered all the characters names.....One night in the summer when i wanted to go to the diner to get food and no one wanted to walk there with me, all i had to do was mention a philly cheesesteak to you and you were down. i remember the convo on the way back, that we wouldnt give up the food for anything, even if someone pulled a knife or a gun or anything. we were hungry,we walked to get it, and it was the principle of the matter lol....This ain't fair that your just a memory broo, not at all. it hasnt stopped hurting since januaty 30th, and it gets worse everyday. i still expect you to come out of no where over the weekend, and me, you, and cody will just talk on your stoop til 3 in the morning. i miss you broo, i would give anything to be out to crosstown diner one more time with you, i would even pay for your philly cheesesteak....I can picture you in heaven now, your ipod headphones in, some weird ass hair cut, sleeveless shirt so you can show off your tribal tattoo, tongue ring and eyebrow ring, watching over all of us...I love you Nespo, and I'll never forget you. Save me a spot up there, and have all the Transformers DVDs ready, and your camaro.....This isn't goodbye, just see you later. Untill we meet again, Rest In Peace Nespo...

I love you NicNIc, I miss you, you are the best . I miss me and you playing video games together. I love you sooooooo much. Nick just come back and play with me forever. You are the best brother . I know that you are always with me. Please come back Nick I miss you. Some day play with me in your spirit, and play video games with me in your spirit. PLEASe come back to me. I love you soooooooooooooooo much. You are the best. Make sure you always stay with me and make sure you sleep with mommy, me and daddy and sometimes play with champ... he misses you too. I miss you soooooooo much. You are my most favorite brother ever. I love you forever and ever and ever .. I will never have a brother like you. You are the best Nick and all your friends miss you too. At the funeral I thought you were holding me. Can you watch over us. I love you soooooooooo much.. This time I will be the older brother and I will never let anything happen to you.. Make sure you will come back. I love you.

Mikey and Nick brothers forever and ever and ever...

I spent a few hours with Father Pat this evening. I see why you loved him so much.. He is great! He loved you sooooo much.. and misses you terribly. We spoke about a lot of things. He came in the nic of time.. Its been really hard .. every day gets worse.. There is no relief..

Received a call the other day... I know you know .. Was not happy about the content of the call. It just confirmed that ... is a selfish person with no heart. I am so sorry my love... If it were the other way around.. no one would be in pain.. Please talk to Jesus and Mother Mary and ask that they see and help us through this... Please be here for Mikey.. Today, he hid his face in Daddy's chest and his tears were falling so much.. He has been trying to be so responsible and mature.. I guess he is trying to be like you.. Unfortunately, he was forced to face what Adults have a difficult time facing... yu were his idol, his buddy, his life toooo.. you know how he always yearned to play with you  and hang out with you... you taught him all the good and the bad stuff... he said he misses when you hugged him and kissed him on his head, and when you would hug him over his right shoulder and tell him I love you Bro... Do you remember how he always suffocated you with wanting to be with you all the time.. he always wanted you to play... HE MISSES you so much..I see his pain, I feel his pain.. I am so very sorry, ... broke him too...

My Soul,

I miss you so much. We went a week without this site and that seemed like an eternity too. I am so sorry that there are cruel people in this world. Most importantly I am sorry that you learned this with your life.

You were and remain to be a perfect example of Love.. LOVE would not let you die.. Love would not lie.. Love would move heaven and earth... Love is not a hypocrite, Love is not lies, Love is not maliciousness, most importantly love never leaves you astray...LOVE NEVER LETS YOU DOWN... I am sorry My love, that ... could never be an example of love. ... is a hypocrite and is filled with lies.. I am sorry that you did not have the strength to call on me. I am sorry you left your faith in the hands of a hypocrite...

MY Soul, Serenity and Sanity.. I need you near me every second of the day.. I need you to hold me and give me grace... I am hungry for popcorn... please keep quenching my hunger.. I need it!!!! See you soon my love!

 

Nespo..Nick..NiNick..Cuzzen Niko Bellic.. Albanese..Box..

Yo i pretty much called you all of them lol except for ninick but ill let it rock.  We had the sickest, weirdest, funniest, and strangest memories.  We would see the weirdest stuff and it would only be when me and you were together.  How bout the time we were going to jon-lucs lol, we are walking down country club road and we get to stadium and what do you know A FULL BLOWN HORSE with no saddle and no rider on it comes galloping down stadium ave. We looked at each other and we were like no wayyyy, and then you see mad cars chasing after the horse lol.

The week of halloween about 2-3 years ago sick, scary night.  That was the night we established that we always see weird things together.  Started off on Layton and Vincent...and to the right the house with the lady screaming hellpppppp i was looking in the window to see if i could see anything but she just kept yelling hellpppp lol...so we booked it down the block ....then on Lafayette we see this wheelchair.. im telling you not to sit in it , why would you sit in a wheel chair on the side of the street anyways, i thought it was possed, maybe if it was on the sidewalk it wouldnt of been as bad but yeahh it was possed bro.... then we come to philip ave... when they were building the corner place where the puppy groming and exterminator and bertos crib is at... well they had up boards... and their was a camera... lol so  you moon this camera.. little did we know their was life in that building.  The guy yells out the window Ohh YEAHH lol we booked it to michelles and you being scared of bats and all their was one in the tree and you screamed lol. 

Remeber when we stayed up all night because samantha and bianca were coming over.  It took us 5 hours to watch Fight CLub, we really watched it the whole night..at the end of the movie we were like wHAtt The... then you fall asleep it was madd hard to get you up, i threw water on you..lol you got tight...its like 7 in the morning and the girls come over and we go in your outhouse room..were chyllen in there and we here boomm boom boom on the steps and it was your pops everyone got madd scared lol but he was cool about it... then we hit up the diner and see scalzo madd early in the morning going to work lol....

Lol how bout the time i slept over and we went to the diner and we randomly meet up with stevie-jay and scalzo...the little black kid getting arrest in front of ctown or what ever its called, the store next to mcdonalds...lol the kid said why aint you helping.. haha we were like should we do something....nahh lol

In broad day light doing graffiti lol

Going to ashleys for something to eat lol...you straight up went in there i dont even think ashley was home and you sit with her mom eat a few cookies and then we leave lol

Late nights just chyllen on your stoop telling stories..talking bout cash money...talking Russian My cuzzen Niko Bellic.. and i was Roman Bellic...and not too long ago we started saying MeSKRETIII....and YAAHHHHHHH....

When we decided to get money....cars....im getting my shelby one day youll see...and you wanted your camaro...

The first day i met you, back in the day, you were in mcdonalds with john-john...and your bikes were in the front so i take yours for no reason and ghost ride it down tremont you came running out madd slow because you had ankle weights on and caughtt it ....you told me that you woulda beat me down lol but you had ankle weights on.. then we just got mad cool after that..

Russels house... we go there and played halo on live i thought it was the sickest thing ever lol...so we see Russes dad and he got the Mr. Smalls/Mythbusters guy mustache going on but he was cool, and Russ and his dad just start fighting lol....then we leave there and for no reason at aLL we walk through edgewater to get home....we felt like spiderman in there we could jump from roof to roof in there..then we get outta memorial park and we see this door open that i had a feeling leads to the roof of that building over there...we go in and walk up the stairs and we are on the roof sick sightss...we told maybe one person about it and then everyone knows about it after that...

W e would jam out to Bone Thugs n Harmony...and when you called me sometimes we would talk madd long on thee phone...like the time you went to Florida you gave me a business proposition to work for the mobb i was said helll noo...but it was a good idea..

This summer we went on Ed's boat you being the sick person you are lol your say "im going fishing" you take the hunting knife put it in your mouth and jump in the water..

Two summers ago..Scott would say ight no more people in the shed you would pop up outta no where...(it was madd hard to find you without your phone)...so you camee outta no where and scott would let you in no matter what..

Three summers ago Philsz cribbb everyday...

Four summers ago Randall white wall remember those days...

Back in the day phils house...baby powder fights... system link on halo... you of course "THE MODER" you like knew mad glitches and stuff...

Our handshake, straight up robbed from how high but we made it our own lol that was a badddass handshake...

We had madd memories bro...You know i always had a way to say see you later, peace..later, holla, goodday lol, blaze 2 get at me in the morning peaceee but i never thought i would have to say good bye forever...i love you bro 

 

 

Nic Nic you came into my dream last night and it felt so real. I was reliving the two weeks prior you leaving us you came over with your mom to pick up Micheal and you asked me when is ajdar leaving and what day will Ajdar come back from vacation and I said he leaves January 25th on sunday and he will return sometime in February forgot the date.

You grabbed me and hugged me and I actually felt my lips touching your face it felt so real. I was watching you leave with Micheal as you both walked down the stairs and you just turned to me and you said I will see you real soon I then said to you have your mom call me later and jack barks and I woke up. I wanted to go back into that dream so bad because it felt so real.  I love you so much I cannot bare the thought you are not here wth us. Everyday since the site has been put together mostly your mom did the rest all I do is sit at the computer and look at all your pictures with everyone and listen to your music that your mom put in the computer and every song hits me with a ball of steal in my chest and I cannot breath. The pit of my soul of my being is broken to little pieces and there is no way of put me together. When I look at your mom, dad, & Michael my soul is pulled in all different directions and I dont know what to do take their pain away and that angers me so much. If GOD asked me to change places with you I would with no hesitation. I just pray that GOD tells me how to take your mom, dad and Michael's pain away but its been 34 days and GOD dos not answer me and I still ask WHY...I Love you soooo Much and I Miss You SOooo Much....Teze

Nic Nic,

 

Im still in disbelief with the news of ur passing :*-( . . . it feels as if it was just yesterday when you rang our doorbell to say hello (new years eve) and Gena & I were shocked that you were smoking ciggs lol. Mom has been speaking to your mom, aunt anna these past few days & everyone is deeply saddend. I hope you are looking down upon all of your loved ones & acknowledge all of the love, happiness, memories, & blessings you have left behind -> all of which will always be remembered!* Looking at your pictures reminds me of how fast time flew by - you & mikey were the first kids I ever babysat lol - remember you made me play video games with you ALLLLLL night until your parents got home haha. All in all your an amazing person Nic Nic & you will always be in our hearts!!!!

 

love your spanish fam lol,

Nic Nic I try to find the words to explain how I feel. I can write on and on and I don't think any words will compare to what I really feel. I wonder everyday why God would give you to us only for him to take you away so soon. I don't think I will ever get that answer but for what ever reason he had I hope it was a good one. I always looked forward to the holidays when we would all be together. You have no idea how special those times are to me. It was so much fun sitting at grandmas table eating and joking. As a family we always had the best laughs from your dad getting on me and steph asking us what loosers we are dating now to bothering nico...lol. How will things ever be the same knowing you will not be around for those times. I can only hope that even though we can not see you...you will still be around laughing along with us like every other year. I love you more than ever nic nic!

Nickk,

i wannna scream! i miss you soo muchh. im crying and i cant help put look at my nails as i type. Nick i want to be the girl who smiled when you noticed my pink nail polish while we were on my webcam &+ thn u saying you liked a girl wearing pink nail polish.NICKK I MISS YOU!! i wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cantt do thiss NICKK! Nick i never want to forget anything you said to me or how you make me feel. Nick i feell you presencee &+ that is what keeps me going! Nickk i wanna go back to the front on monicas when you put your arms around me, Nickk thats where i belong. thats where i feel myself. I miss you nickk. &+ i cant even believe im writing this nick!! ILOVEYOU<3

oh how i wish i told you who that away was for, instead of being afraid to say itt. i shoulda told you it was about you!! Nickk people say the pains going to go away and it never will. Nickk i miss you!! AHHAAHH! ='[

Nick im gonna try and be strong. &+ nickk everything u ever told me im going ot listen to. i listened to noone but you before and thats never gonna change!!

i lovee youu

xxoxo

Christine!