Nicholas Marty Nespolini

ninicc i need you here ; i cry myself to sleep every night. my other half is gone and im never gonna get him back ! Im not myself anymore .. i feel like a different person and i dont like it .. i cant bare to even laughh because im hurting soo much .. theres not one minute that i dont wish it was me instead of you .. you deserve to still be here .. i miss you so much! i feel like a part of me just died when you left. I dont feel the same, i wont ever have anyone make me laugh the way you do and i wont ever be as happy to talk to anyone the was i was wen i spoke to you. i miss you nic and i dont know how to handle it anymore .. i need you to be here with me .. i wish i could go back in time and just freeze so none of us would have to go through such a terrible loss.. i miss you nic anddd i love you more thennn you'll ever know!! please give me strength to continue cause its not going too good nic .. i love you and miss you _ keep watching over mee .. your MY ANGEL <3 4.21.92 - the day my family was blessed with an angel 1.30.09 - the day god took him back :'(

There are plenty of words that can be written down to express what happened on 1-30-09. Sometimes its hard to express in words what you truly feel. I believe words are just words and its what you truly feel is inside of you and kept there forever in one's heart. Remember the night you asked Steph for a favor at Woodbury , and u said steph I never asked you for a favor but can you please give me another 15 minutes because you wanted to talk to a girl, u practically begged her. Well I need a favor from you. Please always keep your spirit alive in your mom, dad and Mikey. Also I think your dad needs to believe like your mom that your presence is here. Maybe you can have a special sign just between you and your dad. I think it might ease the pain even if it's just for that special moment. I know i asked for two favors, but I know you will answer them. I love you Nic Nic always and forever!!

Dear Nespo,

omg i dont know where to begin; it still shocks me to this very day that you are actually gone. if there was a way for me to bring you back, trust me i would in a heartbeat. its so hard without you around, hanging out is not gunna be the same without you. scratch that, nothing is the same without you. every little thing i do reminds me of you. i will never forget all the good times we had for as long as i live. i try so hard not to think of all the negative things but i cant help it, but i strive everyday to think about all the positive things to make it seem like your still alive. i keep my head up high bc i know you wouldnt want me to be sad. theres not a day that goes by that i dont think or talk about you. ill never forget the memories we shared like the day when me & my sister picked up you & scott from school in my dads ghetto mobile, we ended up going to the store to buy you ciggarettes of course and then we just drove around aimlessly listening to music. then me commming home & then seeing you later on that night on layton. Or the time when we were on layton & i come out outta nowhere randomly going im gunna call you nesquick instead of nespo, you just looked at me like i had ten heads. and then scott making the infamous myspace nesquick picture. that was priceless. gosh, those memories i will never ever forget. I also remember the night when my mom picked us up from layton & you were arguing w| her to come inside your house for a little bit to say hi to your mom. then the whole ride home my mom was telling me how weve known eachother since diapers. my mom was so happy that we started chyllen and so was i. you will always have a special place in my heart, you were a good friend to me, i will never ever forget you.

your my angel-please watch over & guide me in everything i do. everyday that passes is a day closer that i get to seeing your face again. i miss you soooooooooo much =[[[[[

i love you.

Rest In Peace <3

love always,

Nicole.

Nick, I wasn't as close to as all of my other friends, and I don't know that much about you, but I do know that you are so missed and you are loved by so many. Your watching over everyone on layton, and everyones looking right up. I remember on the 4th of July, it was the the first time I heard anyone talk about you because it came from my dad lol He asked me if I knew you because apparently my dad knows your dad, and I always meant ask you about that but I never got the chance. And I told my dad, that I didn't really know you but I knew of you. But I remember the first time you spoke to me, It was like 11 clock at night, on a sunday I think in the summer, it was dead on layton, and Alex was somewhere with someone, and you were on the corner with a couple of boys, and I was standing alone, because Alex had left me, and you saw me alone and you called me over and started talking to me. That gave me the greatest impression of you. I just got back from boarding school and I knew nobody and I was all alone and you called me over and kept me company. Haha after talking awhile you asked me if I wanted to split a bottle of some sort of liquor and I told you I didn't drink and you looked at me as if I had 4 heads haha. But it was so nice of you to call me over like you did, when you didn't even know me and it really made me happy. That little thing that you did was a big thing to me, and it just showed what kind of person you were. You were very respectful and everyone respected that. You were one of the nicest people I met this summer, and it disappoints me that I didn't get to get as close to you as everyone else was, from what I hear you were amazing, you are amazing. I'm sorry I didn't get to make it to the wake and funeral, I go to boarding school way out in long island, but I think I already told you that. I send my condolences to your family and everyone who loves you. Watch over all my friends, actually I don't even need to ask, I know you will. But please, especially, watch over my cousin, Alex, I know she misses you so much and this is so hard for her. We'll meet one day again Nespo, and I'm definetly going to try and get to know you better, maybe I'll drink that bottle with you lol. Rest in Peace Nicholas Nespolini<3 Your our angel now.

Nickk, I cant believe you gone. I cant. i keep thinking im going to see you at the most random times like i alwayss did. Nick i keep thinking im going to see you waiting for the bus in the freezing cold. i dnt even want to go to school anymore because your not gonna be there for me to see. Nick i'd do anything to have you back &+ id do anything to take your place i really would. Nick i want to let you know i love you with all my heart &+ i was afraid to let everyone know tht &+ i hid it andd im never gonna forgive myself for being soo stupid. Nick im never gonna forget howw you skipped up the black with ashlees american flagg orr how i bought you tht eyebrow ring and when u looked at mee you faacee. ahah! =] im never gonna forget how you smell or how being in your arms made me feel. Nick i will never forget your eye &+ i really hope my kids have eyes just like you. Nickk i remeber your face when you got your tattoo for your grandpa you look soo proudd. I miss you nicck &+ forever will youu be in my hearrtt!!

 

 i dnt feel the same w.o you.

 

you made me the person i amm &+ you taugh me how to love &+ most importantally you taught me how to live!

 

 

the picture is of the sun that was on my celing that you made fun of me forr! imy. &+ even though that sun isnt there anymore.. nick you will always be the sun in my heart &+ my life!

nic.. i cant do it .. i dont know how im gonna be able to go on without you! theres not one night that passes that i dont cry because your gone and theres not one minute in the day that im not thinking about you .. i miss you so much and it hurts! i just want you to be back here with me.. i need to hug you and hear you say i love you againn !!!!! I CANT DO IT NIC .. I NEED YOU HERE .. i thought it would get easier but it hurts more and more everyday cus im slowly starting to realize your really not here with me .. help me nicc i need you to help me get through it cause i dont know if i can.. I LOVE YOU BRO .. your always in my heart forever and ever <333 my brother - my other half <33 love alwayss, your sisterr tottyy

my angel nick,
i've came up with the thought God dropped you straight from heaven in your mommy's belly, then into the arms of your parents, and then and now and for always into the hearts of all of us. i stood awake the other night waking up unable to close my eyes because no matter how hard i tried, i couldnt hear you screaming at my window. every day every hour every minute every second, i get a bit closer to you. but every breath i take it gets harder because your not here to share that breath with me. nick youll truly never be forgotten. who can forget you, nobody! youve done so much for ALL of us! i wish you were here now! here to hold me up here for me to hold you up. nick if i could i would hold you forever. no matter whats wrong with me i would hold you , no matter how weak my arms would get, i wish i never let go. i hope you hear me, because i'm living with a huge regret on shoulders that gets heavier everyday. i know we used to bug each other but you were also the first person i ran to. but whats hurting so bad right now, is, when i had my ocd and bipolar moments id flip, and you told my mom i didn't love you , nick i love you and i promise, i always told you, but it wasn't enough. i mean you knew i was here for you and you let me be just as i did. but i wish i could just tell you out loud in person face to face just holding you, I LOVE YOU NICK! and just thank you so much. you always opened my eyes wider and wider everyday. but not theyre so open, i want to shut them, because no matter how open they get, i cant see you. nick i miss you so much. i love you . i come down the stairs in the morning wishing to see you at my computer dancing with marcus or lil shqipe as you'd say. i just, i know your in my heart, in my head, and by my side, but nick i cant hold you anymore with your huge hugs that cut my oxygen off. i remember i was crying oneday and for some reason you were in like yonkers but you called me n i said nick where are you and you heard me crying and said dont worry. 15 minutes later you were at my door. and you just hugged me and it made me feel weightless. god knows i love you nick. the nights i dream with you, make me feel so fufilled, i dont want to wake up because i know your really there, because i feel you. nick i love you for ALWAYS. dont forget that, i hope when God opens those gates for me, your on his right side waiting for me with open arms, like you always were when i woke up and came downstairs. i love you nick, ill see you later. love always , ashlee.

Nespo!! Remember this when you tagged upp my room...i remember the look on ur face the day i told u..lolz that look WILL alwayz stay in my heart and mind..i wish i could just see you one more time to say good bii..we have so many good memories together..remember wen ui used to go to ur house and ask u for advise and eat ur food lolz i miss u so0o much..u will alwayz b in my heart i love u NICK

Omg man I miss u. Remember that time Jose was at my house and you was sleepin over, and me and Jose went to Eckerds to buy exlax and give it to u. Lol we told u it was alcoholic chocolate and u believed us and you kept askin for more. Lmao!! I imagine u was in the bathroom majority of the next day lol. I Luv u

Nespo,

I love you and miss you so much. Words can not explain how much this hurts, I just wish there was a way to bring you back but I cant =/. Now all I have is the memories with you. I miss your bear hugs were you would squeeze me and lift me up and then I would be like allright allright I cant breath and then you would put me down. We did a lot of shit together like go to phils house and drink, go to ampere beach, chill on layton, fights, sleepovers, gett madd fucked up together, and the list can go on. Nothing is the same and will never be the same without you. [O1.30.O9] is the day when everyone lost the greatest person ever. This was the day were I lost not only one of my bestfriends, but one of my older brothers. The day you left this earth I lost a part of myself, and the place in my heart that you filled will never be replaced. Im going to miss the memories that could have come, now all I can do is imagine. Your little brother reminds me so much of you, he is you all the way and when I see him and all the shit he does I just think of you. Your mother, father, brother amoung with a lot of other people are part of my famiy now. I just cant comprehend how they could take such a great person away from us. I miss youu soooooooo fucking much & ill always love youu.

love always, Faliesha

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