Nicholas Marty Nespolini

hey NicNic,

If TEARS could build a stairway and MEMORIES a lane,  I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again

i remember it so clearly nick we were in front of lorrettas and you paused the ipod we were both listening to and you asked me a serious question with such a face that was undescribable and once i responed yes you gave me such a grin and told me that we were cuzzins and now i know were i get my crazyness from but it was ment to be that way you saved me from alot in life i MEAN ALOT but i always looked at you as a guardian in the streets everthing i did you had to allow me to do you were my best friend big brother and my HERO but after you passed away i realized i havent met my otherside of the family besides OUR PARENTS AND OUR LITTLEBROTHER i love mikey so much you dont understand hes holding the block down with me because non of these fake kids r but i wish you cud see how bad these kids are there so fake i want you to help me and phil get threw this cause we cant hold it down ourselves  we need you nick and we miss you but after you passed away i recently found out were really cuzzins so now i kno were i get the crazyness from you and your mom  i love yous so much and i promised your dad i would do good in skewl for you because i know you would want me to finish it so wish me luck but now we dont have to lie about being cuzzins but its just gnna be me with some story to tell everyone how i am related to the best person on earthhhhhhhhhh<3 i miss you sooo muchhh andd if it wasnt for your mom idk wut i would shes my mom my stress relever like therapy but the only person i would ever talk to because you dont respond back no more i just need to hear yur voice to keep me going but i LOVE YOU TUNAA THANK YOU SO MUCH  nick sometimes i feel that imm all alonee inn this worldd and thenn our family comes along and saves me from alot of mistakes so now i know were you got the good real person in you from you were raaised from the best well ii love youu soo muchh as mikeyy nick andd m0mmmmyy (tuna) toooo night nicnicc restt inn peaceee cuzohh and yur the only person that gave me there jacket wen i was coldd and cuddled with me in a pickupp and it will remain that way no homo justtt brotherly love i love you rest in peacee

Nic nic July 25 2009 is a blessed day that Jesus you and everyone else was there to protect mikey, mommy and daddy and they came home thank you to all of you especially Jesus and you NIC. You really watched over your brother and when I went to the hospital I see Mikey sitting with feenie he looks at me and says "you see I am not dead" those words are hard to swallow when I had to hear it from Mikey's mouth he too little to worry about that. But Mikey is a fighter he did not want to sit there and wait for his Xrays he wanted the xray to be done right there and then. NIc I am sitting next to Mikey and he goes Teze I am not in a mood to talk I want the Xrays done now can you go and ask the nurse when are they going to do my Xray I want to go home. I tell you Nic he is you and daddy piled into one there is no one going to tell him anything different accept what that little head of his says (Stubborn oh my GOD) One of the cops told me daddy was about to tare the hospital apart if someone did not take care of mommy and mikey and it took 4 cops to try to control daddy. Your daddy is a Galdiator I love your dad he is the MAN, your dad is a mans man not too many around.

 

JESUS Mother Mary Nic Nic thank you for bring home my Tuna, Mikey and Nicky home safe and sound THANK YOU SO MUCH. Please I beg you ALL please watch over them and keep them safe AMEN.

 

Nic NIc I LOVE YOU for ETERNITY life here really is unbarable without you. Oh little Nicky was in a fight I know you were there with him he is a little fisty little guy Nic you and your friend always reminded me of your mom and little Lisa I always told you that. Little Nicky told me that it was the same guys that always fought with you I got tight when he told me that.

Nick,

i've been basically laying in my bed for two days doing absoulty nothing. i feel like a bum. last night i was on the phone with Ashleee, i miss her shes in lake george. We both miss you so much and we were talking about you and how we miss you so much. i was crying; ashlee yelled at me saying that nicks screaming at you right now. Nick i miss you so much... and i wish i could talk to you. i need you. and half the time i try so hard not to think about you because i dont want everyone to see how much pain im in. Nick its not working. Building up is so much harder then tearing it down. im sure you understand that... The other day i was in Gernomos and some lady was asking about the picture of you and mikey in your window... and anthony ask me and i was like that nick and his little brother... and they were talking about you for a few seconds and then the lady was like what "good looking boys" i walked out at that nick... cuz i believe thats a understatement. nick your more than just good looking, your amazing. You are one of the kindest people i know and you will always be one of the people i love the most. i love you with all my heart... and those seven words dont even begin to explain my feelings for youu. Nick i wish could turn back the hands of time i really do... and if i could i would; you know im "crazy" enough to do it to. ='[ Nick i hold on to eveything you ever said to me, every memory i have of you, even if some of them make so sence to me. Nick, i only truly understood somethings when you explained it, even if sometimes you made me feel like a idoit in the process, like always making fun of my spelling and laughing at me; thats what made me like you so much, thats what will make me never forget you.... this summer isnt the same w.o you and neither will next summer and the years to come. it never gonna be the same with you. I miss you so much =/  you and your crazy self keeping me and many other up all night long and waking me up as soon as possible...  ahhh!!!! i miss you!!! nick, as im shure you heard and laughed along with me and you mom when we joked about a certain "someone" well anyways samantha i just wanted to tell you that not only does the saliva burn the skin does to! ahahha Nick, i'll never understand why you told me to call him that day... mhm. ugh. i miss you nick. i love you so much i hope when i close my eyes for the final time that your there guiding me, and showing me what you've learnned while your up there<3 I hope its nice there.... I miss youu nick, my 21.. and im one day closer to seeing you.

- christine 7.21.09

Today, is like any other day since you closed your eyes to this life... Its hard!

 

I was with Jenn D. (YOur First Love) yesterday... HAd a good time my love. She Hurts so much for you... your anniversary day was hard for her.. she laid in bed all day... I dont have to tell you, I am sure you know.

Mikey jumped into the bay yesterday.. He got a little daring, had to give him the old fib tales to prevent him from jumping in again.... The Old Shark story.. It worked!

He was swimming with Johnny, Andy, Kweezie and Jojo... He had a really good day yesterday!

AS for me.... I am the same... it will NEVER change! Now all I do is count the days that pass, and hope that there's not many more left to count.... SOOOOOON!

 

Soon, A blessed word for me... I hope!

I love you and miss you more than I can say in words.... Until I am in your arms again!

nicnic i cant write everything i wana say on a candle im sitting in the backyard at nanas house and again no matter wat ur all i think about no matter what im doing .. u are the best the only one i never fought with the only that never had a problem with anyone .. the only that loved us no matter what .. i went to the doctor with ur mom and dad today i truly love ur mom dad and mikey more then anything i wish i could have a dad like urs.. even though hes not my real dad i love him so much hes the best and ur mom i could talk to about anything she understands me and listens to me and i dont really have that many people that listen and talk to me shes the best and mikey our lil brother i love him sooo much he makes me so happy he really is my brother and so are u .. i know u are here and i know u will never leave any of us u are really an angel i want u to know that no matter what i will never stop thinking about u no matter what and like i said before i will try my best to do anything for ur mom dad and mikey ..i want to come where u are i want this to be fake i hate believing this i love u so much bro and i cant wait to see u like i said b4 please make sure i remember u in my dreams and i know that u have a lot of requests everyone wants u near them but whenever u get chance stop by in my dreams please i love u nic everyone is leaving nanas now so i wont have the comp i loveeeeeeeeeee uuuuu i could say it a million times talk to later nicnic byeeee

Try and get your faith back, Mrs. Nespolini, and just know that justice WILL be served.  In your son's memory.

I did not know your son, however, for a brief period of time I lived on the corner house, 669 Randall Ave.  I frequently saw your husband in the neighborhood, but never had the privelige to meet yourself, or you sons.  I clicked on the website just out of curiousity, because I saw the article a few months ago in the Bx. Times Reporter.  I have not stopped crying.  I can't even imagine your pain.  I will pray for you all.  I don't have children, but I  don't believe we are supposed to bury them, they are supposed to do that to us.  My prayers are with you all, and your family, and all of Nicky's friends.  It says alot about a person, and their families, by the responses you read.  GOD BLESS.............a fellow Throggs Necker.

heyy kiddoo ! omg i cant even explain how much i miss you ! i swear your aunt mare iss too much .. ive never met anyone like her .. she has such good intentions and such a good heart ! well i had a good day today with some friends .. i hvnt been having good days lately .. ive been missing you so much .. i miss your voice and your touchh .. i juss miss you being there for me to call when im upset because you were the only person who could cheer me up ! i love you nic .. im going to floria on wed. be with me and ssaranda on the flight and throughout our whole trip ! i love your mom soo muchh nic .. i wishh i could be with her everydayyyy but i cant with school and work but i hope she knows that theres nothing more id love to do thn just keep her nicky and mikey company all day .. its hard even when im there nic .. because i cant help but be sad bbecause i miss you .. i miss my other half .. and i have to be strong for your mom !! i cry everynight because its hurts so much to not have you around ! i swear nic i dont know how to deal with this anymore .. its soo hardddd .. it reallyy is and i jus need u here i juss needa know that you'll be here with me forever .. i want my best friend backk ! i want my other half .. i feel lost without you nic ..

 

last night i was webcam chatting with reggie .. i dnt know if you remember him but you met him with me one night .. he remembers you because you were all i talked about .. well he is in the army and he's been in korea for the past few months and he's gonna be there for a while and we were both looking at your page and he couldnt help but notice all the peopless lives you touched. . you were truly an angel my love .. do me a favor and watch over him .. i dont waant anything to happen to him over there .. i lovee youu

 

ohh andd i saw that it was your 3 year with jen a few days agoo .. i really love her nic .. that girl loved u with all her heart .. keep watching over herr

 

alright well im gonna go to sleepp .. or atleast try to make the tears stop so i can .. i lovee you with all my heartt and not a day goes by when i dont wish you were here with me !! i lovee youu kidd keep watching over us all .. especially nana .. i need her here with me nic .. pleasee make suree that she staysss with mee pleaseee nic .. i loveee youu and miss youuu .. sww you inn my dreammsss

 

Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom his love commits me here,
Ever this day be at my side,
To light and guard, to rule and guide.