Nicholas Marty Nespolini

Nicky it's been so difficult for me to accept you are no longer here.  Thinking of all the pranks I played on you today made me laugh as if it just happen for the first time. Remembering the last time I saw you at the park and could not believe how grown you looked.  How blessed your parents are to have such wonderful boys.  As you well know I would never know what is to be loved by a son God Blessed me with six Bi Polar girls, lol

hey kiddd - i was in the nail salon today and i was looking in the mirror and i had to hold back tearss because every time i see myself as i grow and get older and get to live my life i think about how that was taken from you & i dont understand why .. i miss you so much nic .. i want nothng more then for you to be here .. i think about you every single day and it never gets easier because i wish i could understand why this had to happen .. why my other half .. my brother was taken away from me!! i start college on friday and im so excited but your not here with me to share the excitement and i wish you were .. my birthdays coming up and so is thanksgiving .. idk how im gonna do it nic .. EVERY birthday and thanksgiving you were with me and we were insperable .. im gonna be alone now .. no matter whos around me .. ill be alone because your not gonna be there .. i cant help but cry at the thought that i have to grow up with out you by my side .. nic i miss you sooooo muchhh .. no one knows how muchh i hurt everyday that your gone! i know everyone is hurting nic .. but its different .. no one was like me and you .. im never gonna have that again .. im not gonna have you to give me those bear hugss and i wont be able to hear your stupid laugh anymore or hear the way you said totty .. i miss your voice i miss your touch .. nic i just misss you more then anything .. i wishhh i could know if you were here with me .. your my angel nic and i love you soo much ! everytime i look at mikey i see you .. everytime i look in the mirror i see you .. you were a part of me nic .. and even thouugh that part is missing right now .. eventually one day ill be back with you again and it will be filled again .. i love you and miss youuu and i hope you know there isnt one day when every person in our family doesnt go through my head .. especially you ! i love you i love you i love youu :'(  :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( 

 

 

Angel of God, my guardian dear,
To whom his love commits me here,
Ever this day be at my side,
To light and guard, to rule and guide.

Hey Booboo, today is like every day  with tears falling down my face, wrenching my heart... How long is the empty journey called life going to be?  Time just seems to be standing still..a day seems like an eternity, too long!

 

My Love I am scared that my memories will eventually seep from my veins, or that you will not remember me too... or that you will not look like my booboo or that you may grow apart or that you will not be there when I arrive.... Will you know me? Will you be grown? Will I lose time?  do you Smile everyday? Are you happy? Do you remember my smile and my eyes, as I do yours?  Or the Love we shared, Can you feel my love for you now?...WILL I STILL BE YOUR MOTHER?... Or does it all go away?  My Love, It will break me to no recovery if in heaven I am not your mother... 

Please, Please be there waiting for me... and always be my son! MY BOO, My best friend! You have to be because, YOu are holding my soul...hahahaha!!!!!

I will forever need you by my side, not just here my love, but also in heaven... So please be there waiting; and dont grow, freeze time up there, I dont want to miss a thing! I wish I can just see you there, even if its just for a few moments...

Till that sweet day that I will rest in true peace... I love you eternally, with my soul and life...

Babyy,

I am so sorry that I haven't written to you in a while. I wanted to write you on our 3 year anniversary but I couldn't bring myself around to do anything. Being without you on such an important day to me ruined me. I couldn't even form sentences that day. I miss you so much Ninic. It really seems like just yesterday when we started going out. I look at all these pictures of us & I remember everything like it just happened. I thought by now it would have gotten a little easier to get used to the fact that I can never hold you again, but I just can't seem to get better. It really bothers me tha I am going to be a senior this year because this was supposed to be our year. We made so many plans with eachother. We were supposed to be eachothers prom dates  . You were supposed to get your permit so you could see me more. We were supposed to be together. Ninic I love you more than words could ever say. Watch over me - I need you now more than ever.

 

I know I'm a little late baby but - 07.11.06 Happy 3 Years ! I love you & miss you so so so so so much.

 

Loveee Shaaapoooplettttt ;P

hey nick todays christines birthday . i know her wish more than anything else would be for you to be here , just like all of us wish . i miss you a lot . mikeys reminding me of u more and more . i remember those times i would be so sad, and in an instant youd change that frown into a huge smile . i remember one day like 2 summers ago we were sitting in ur house watching the summer of sam . it was a beautiful day out . it was so bright out and it didnt feel empty at all . we were eating our depression cookies even though we werent sad at all . that summer was so beautiful out . every block party u begged my mom to let me stay out with you later and shed say yes . i miss those times . then after youd come in my house like it wasnt 12am and lay on my couch. you would tell me all this stuff about ur days that were way more exciting than mine or things you needed to talk about just anything possible . from the day i met you,my summer has never been boring . i might have not gotten my sleep with you throwing pebbles or lollypops i made at my window but i wouldnt trade it for the world . this summer feels empty . because somethings missing, someone is missing... you . i miss you nick . you grew into my family like no other . its impossible to forget you and i never want to nor will . nick you are my best friend even when i feel like i have none i know youd never let me down . i loveu forever . forever and always . love ashlee .

hey nick . i miss you sooo much . i really do . . i havent written to you in a while . but i talk to you every night . nothings the same without you . no ones coming over in the middle of the night to tell me a new story no ones yelling at my window at 3 a.m asking for bustelo or just to bug me . i looked out window last night and you werent there . i look every night hoping youll be there again . my sweet sixteen went by and i wish you you were there . i know you were in spirit but i miss ur hugs and ur advice and just how u made me laugh and want to kick ur butt at the same time 24/7 . i want to thank u for my luna . she sort of reminds me of u . she wakes me up at 3 every night she makes me feel better when im sad and shes my best friend . nick i really miss u . my heart still hurts from january 30 . i love u and i miss u very much . ull always be my best friend never will i forget u . love always ashlee . i love u

Hey Bud,

Just sitting here looking at your pictures and thinking back at the great times we had.. The way we would laugh at stupid things... and the way you always knew how to get my blood racing with the hypotheticals you would come up with... Your imagination, your personality, your humor, your creativity, and your friendship will forever be missed.. from the depths of my soul...

 

When looking upon your beautiful pictures I cant help but choke up because I am not supposed to just have you on paper... ME, Mikey and Daddy are supposed to have you by our side... No matter what life is bringing forth for us, we will NEVER be whole without you..

 

You made this family, a family of laughs and True Love....you kept the serenity and the sanity for us all...You always knew how to keep us smiling and always proud. Forever doesn't describe the time, the distance, the depths of my love for you, it is the only  word that can somewhat describe it... but you know! 

One day my love, I will be with you.... We will dance as we did, we will sing, we will laugh at everything... and through this all I will always remember the PAIN of losing you in this life and with this memory that not even heaven can erase I will this time, carry you in my arms forever...and never let you go...

 I do promise you that my promises to you at life will be fullfilled, oh one more Promise, I promise you my love, that when I get to see you and hold you in my arms there will be no Fire or Storm that will tear you away from me again.... I will for eternity stand with you, holding you, and forever embracing your Love and SOul.... Without you, I am not whole... Love you always my love...

Little Nicky,

I knew you when you were a little boy. I used to work out with your dad and hang with him. Nicky Balls I would call him and you were little Nicky. I remember the day your dad got those tv's in the white Suburban and I said to him, why do you also need a TV on the sun visor? and he said, " I gotta watch tv too Paulie"..  He loves you so much and was always an inspiration to see how much he adored you and did everything for you. I am a dad now too and I adore my daughter til the end of days. I moved to CT years ago and lost touch with your dad. I heard about this today from my cousin who saw your memorian billboard.. I am so sorry I was not there to pay my respects. My main goal now is to find your dad, see him and give him a hug and connect with him again... He is an awesome man and even though the last time I saw you, you were a boy, I knew you would be an amazing person like him and your mom.. I pray God gives your family some sort of comfort through this and gives them strength.

Pablo A. Arenas (Paulie)
parenas@fusioncreativestudios.com

Nick,

im just stopping by to sayy i miss you teriballly! and nothing here is the same w.o you. and im just finding it really funny how everythings changing. if you took a good look around the negiboor hoodd you can see how everythings different. nothings the same, and it seems to me tht im seeing more and more whos fake and who isnt. its kinda sicking. mann nick i wish you were here to help us all out w. everything =l everyone seems to be going through all theses different problems... but i dnt get it... dont they learn? dont they understand? and dont they wanna make u proud? nick they make me wonder everydayy. i miss you. i love you and i wish you were here.