Nicholas Marty Nespolini

Hey my love,

Yesterday we attended Mass for you... In celebration of your life and your birthday. We had a cake and celebrated with All of your family and good friends. My Love, they screamed your name out in front of the house. The radio announced your Birthday.... Alice, Brought you balloons and Mikey & Ashlee, Daddy & Me, let them loose.. We made wishes on them and sent them to you with lots of love... Hope you received them... Jenn, Danny and Stacey brought you a tree... Yesterday it was Planted... Tuesday at 5:14 PM the exact day and time you were born... They all Love you... They all are the true meaning of love and friendship....

 

Everyday is difficult my love, the word difficult can not describe what I am internally feeling and facing.. but what made yesterday worse was reading the bullshit that that piece of work wrote about me.. My Love, she failed to understand your love for me... She failed to hear you when you said that I was the air that your breathed too.... She thinks its F----- cute to talk about me and put these messages on her phone for the incoming calls to see... My love, you were so right, when you said she did not have your morals... she could not come close to you...

 

My Love, she uses texts and alters them and displays them as though they were your actual writings to her... She really didnt know your loyalty at all.... she did not know who you were, what you stood for and your morals...

you would have never intentionally made her parents endure additional anguish, you would have never failed her, you would have called 911.... something that even a 7 year old knows to do... SHe failed to call 911 for you, she failed to defend you when her and her friends decided to steal from phil, she allowed them to accuse you... she enduced you into going to that place, she failed you my love and then she lied about you, your life, your character and then your death... She has been playing damsel in distress and lying to people... the stories are endless... I told her father that he needed to talk to her and make her stop... but my love, she doesnt... she goes on and on....

My Love, I remember when you told me that she thought she could beat you up...  I remember telling you to let her believe what she wanted... I remember telling you, just remember to always respect a women regardless of what she does... just walk away... MY love, she has taken our kindness and loyalty and construed it as a weakness.... Silence should never be construed as a weakness...

 

My Love as you know, she should thank Her God (satan) that I have faith in Jesus and Mary... Because If I did not, She would not be telling her lies... She should be greatful that I have not let go of my faith.. My Love, She is a failure... a loser!

 

I think My love, That she has viewed me as being weak... She is failing herself with her perceptions... My Love, for you I will live in hell for an eternity...... My Love, I know that you have been so busy around us and around all of your friends... PLEASE make it a point to visit her ( dont stay too long, Your an angel now and shouldnt be around Evil) and whisper.... the same thing I whispered to that Lady... You know what was said!!! Tell her the same way.... Show her your loyalty and where it lays my love.... Bud, she thinks that her 6 weeks of knowing you,  equates to a greater magnitude to that of me and you... HAHAHAHAHA

Please let her know ! Make her stop!!!!!

Hello My Sweet Baby,
Today is your 17th birthday & words can't even begin to describe how much I miss you. Last night I cried my eyes out because it hit me once again that I can never hear your voice anymore. I call your voicemail every night before I go to sleep because I need to hear your voice. Your pictures are right beside my bed & you are the first person I see when I go to sleep & the first I see when I wake up every morning. Today I spent part of the night at your house after the mass that your family had in memory of you. I love your family so much, its really ridiculous. I've never felt so loved before. Every time I go into your house, I am just completely overwhelmed with love. I feel you all around me everywhere I go, but its not the same. I miss waking up everymorning to a new voicemail from you. I miss sneaking off to the bronx to come see you. I miss the little notes you'd write me. I miss kissing you. I miss talking to you 24/7. I miss saying I love you 4923054905489 times before we got off the phone & making everyone want to throw up haha. I just miss you. Reality really sunk in today when I woke up this morning & picked up my phone to call you to wish you a happy birthday. I talked to your voicemail until it told me my message was too long. I doubt you would want to hear it anyway, its basically me crying my eyes out. You showed me how to love Ninickk.You taught me how to be myself. You made me laugh more than anyone else ever could. Yeah, we drove eachother CRAZY but thats why I loved you so much. We loved eachother at our weakest point & our strongest & thats all that mattered to us. I know that things didn't work out the way we wanted them to but in my heart there will always be the memory of us planning out our future. Living in country club with our 3 kids & 2 dogs. I remember you told me you wanted to live in country club because if you left the bronx you would miss your mom too much. I truly feel bad for the guy I marry because he will NEVER have my all of me. My heart is forever yours baby & I can promise you that that will never change. The reason why I wrote this was just to say that I love you Nicnic. I love you. I love you. I love you. & I'll say it a million more times if i have to... You are my Love, my Best Friend, my Life, my Soul & my everything. "I'm everything I am, because you loved me." Mwaaaaaa ! Another day has passed, bringing closer the day that I will see you again. Save a place for Me & Shnookums next to you.

July 11, 2006 Always & Forver.

Love JennJenn <33

happy birthday nick! wow i miss you soo much. today tears fell from my eyes like waterfalls. but then i realized, i know im crying because your gone, and not here to celebrate your birthday with us, but inside i know you are here. i saw that candle flickering today and i know it was you saying im here guys. nick we trully love you. today we celebrated the life you lived, the life we miss. you remain a part of all of our hearts. your mom dad mikey me my mom sister marcus margret lil nicky and cody and of course marty, we let 5 balloons go for you. all with wishes and love. sending them to heaven for you. i bet you god had a huge birthday party for you up there. i know he did. nick youll always be in my heart. iloveyou. happy birthday. last year for your birthday me u ur cousin and granparents squeezed in a car to patricias. wow i remember that. that was nice. thank you. come visit me please, you always used to. love always and forever and ever and ever (like i will love you) -ashlee(=

Happy Birthday!!

We all miss you!!

Blow your candles up in heaven!!

 

Nic nic Happy Birthday make a wish and blow out the candles up in heaven and as you do stay by daddy, mommy and Mikey they miss you buddy and so does Teze we all miss you so much wish you were here with us

but I have to go to your house and meet up with your mom & dad and on my way I will be picking Mikey from feenies house. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

i love you i miss you and marty is a great dog .and marty and baby and romeo are playing . i love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much love lil nespo ...... nic nic lol help me i have mikey and 3 crazy dogs lol love you

happy birthday my stud!! just sitting here with your cousin josephine talkin about you & all the funny good times .. wish you were here so we could talk about tattoos & hang out us 3 .. miss your precious smile & your lively personality & sense of humor that you always brought .. watch over your family & then me too .. your smile lives on 4ever!! happy birthday nicnic luv u & miss you

happy birthday nic nic .. there is not 1 second that i dont think about u .i cant believe its ur 17th birthday i wish you were here so i could drink 15 cranberry and vodkas with you this time i wont yell at you lol .. i miss u calling me and telling me about your fights even though im a girl lol u reminded me of myself i would always fight for other people and never myself .. and i miss you calling me and me putting you on speaker because you never got to the point hahaha .. i miss the rides i would give and annoy u in the car the whole way there and tell u u better call me if anything happens and being a sicko and watching you walk into the house and u would say c mon feen im fine lol or when mikey would annoy u and hit u and then run behind me cuz he thought i could beat you up lol and u would said feen u dont understand hes annoying when he gets older im gona kick his ass like quezzy did to me ... u were a part of us me totty saranda and u we were the younger ones and this sucks nick i wish u were here and i wish i could have seen u on thursday i should have came inside that bothers me so much but it makes me feel better that your gona come in my dreams one day .. and maybe in our dream we could go out for drinks and maybe even get into a fight hahah i love you soo much i gota look after mikey now even though i know u will i still gota lol im his big sister and friend and watever else he calls me finally i wrote something ur mom has been telling me to but i just didnt know wat to say ..just please stop in sometimes lol smoke a stoge even though u dont like the marlboro reds ill leave a pack of newports layin around .. always stay with mommy daddy and mikey and now marty and all of us love you so much bro missssss u ill see you one day and ill still be overbearing and protective haha happy birthday again well toast later to a cran nd vodka love you lol i must have said that about 20 times lol i just dont wana stop writing ok im done love you happppppyyyyyy birthhhhhdayyyyy

 

Nick,

It’s your birthday and I can’t help but think about what my life would be like if I never meet you. Nick I’m thinking and I can honestly say I wouldn’t be the same. You made me who I am and my heart tears knowing that you gone. Nick I want to wake up from this nightmare’s wanted to be with you... I can’t do this nick. The pain my body feel about this whole this is unbearable... I miss you!!!! AHAHHAHAAHHA! Nick my heart, our hearts cry for you.  Nick you’re in heaven now and I don’t want you up there feeling my pain so I try to hide it but I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be able to keep going hiding how imp feeling.

 

Nick,

I don’t understand why you’re gone and I don’t get why people are so stupid. And why the like to bee immature and stupid about this. I want to kill some people because there nothing but no good dirty liars. UAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH nick please ask god to forgive me in advance... please I ask you this all the time and I’m going to keep asking because I don’t know what I’d doo....

 

Nick,

Right now it pouring and there thunder and lighting. And I can’t help but think... when I was little my nana used to tell me when I was scared to sleep because of the thunder that it was just god bowling. As I got older I heard different things about thunder, like god was mad, and I heard all this scientific stuff too... But nick your up there with God now; and I listen out my window and listen to the rain hit the ground and I’m listening to the roaring thunder and the lighting and I can’t help but that think it’s you not God, or maybe it’s even the both of you because it’s pretty loud. Nick when I hear the thunder I picture you screaming during a fight or screaming when you were yelling at someone... I’m picture you face as you scream; nick keep on screaming, scream everything to us... tell us everything we need to know, so we can do something without knowledge of what happened. Nick guide you mom, and dad to the find the information they need. Light there way as you screams with all the lightning bolts that come down from heaven...

 

Nick,

Mikey is you number one priority and he will always be. As I keep saying... I’m always going to keep my promise to you... I always will until my dyeing day and forever more... Nick guide mikey to become a man just as great as you are, or even greater... Nick all your friends and family are here for him where going to make shore he take the right steps while growing up and nothing bad is going to happen to him I promise you that!

 

Nick,

Nick you are going to always be in everyone’s hearts. Nick I'm sending you your birthday kisses and punches to heaven, it won’t be the same as if you were here but right now it’s all I can do. Nick when I finally get to meet you again I’m going to make up for all the lost birthday wishes... I remember your birthday last year, I was at ash lees and you came and talked to us for like hrs... =/ Happy birthday Nick ... I miss you so much and my heart will forever yearn to be with you again. Nick you are the first person I fell in love with and my love is and will be forever growing. I love you. I’ve love you since the moment I meet you and I will love until eternity.

 

Nick,

One of the most Predominate memories that will be playing in my head today is of the day I meet you.  It was the first time I hung out with Ashlee. I was wearing my head in the cloud shirt and Ashlee had put vanilla frosting all over my face. Nick we were sitting on Ashlee’s porch and you walked out of you house and you came right up to be and you were like “Hi, I’m Nick” I don’t remember what we talked about that night but I do remember laughing a lot… I went home and I thought about you all night, I couldn’t get you off my mind. Little did I know that you were talking to Ashlee about how you liked me very soon after.

Another thing I will never forget about you is how you made me feel. On September 21 or my freshman year I finally experience how it felt like to be in the arms of someone you could fall madly and deeply in love with. Nick you made me feel like I was on top of the world and I will never forget that… never. &+ I know deep in my heart that you will be the only one who makes me feel exactly that way.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICKK!

 

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will NEVER shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

 

heyy ninic .. i miss you sooo much its unbelieveable ! your birthday is tomorrow and its making reality kick in a little bit harder. I miss you more and more everyday. People say it gets easier as you go but it doesnt. I keep thinking about how everytime i would tell people u were my little cousin you'd go "Im only 6 months younger then you!" and get mad cause id make you seem like a baby lol i loved it when we argued cause we always argued over dumb stuff. You were like my brother nic. I was showing my teacher the website today and she saw pictures of me and you and everyone was like you two look so much alike .. it hurts so much nic when i hear people talk about you! i just want to cry everytime i hear your name. i miss you so much. I think about you everyday .. it hurts more and more everytime i think that your not here. I got baptized last weekend. I bet you were happy to see that your mom & dad were my god parents. I gave mikey my cross to wear along with the one he wears for you. So he has us both close to his heart. I love you so much nic .. i miss you .. i said it a million times lol but i cant think of anything other then how much i miss you. Your supposed to be here to celebrate your birthday. Your supposed to be here with tuna and nicky and mikey me and everyone. I just want to say i love you and i miss you again!! ill see you in my dreams .xoxox.